The kiwi and a cat

"A rose is a key, in the hands of the a poet"

So this is a thought, pretty much a inspiration to all. Even though this week is a major improvement from last. People still need to cheer up more. The meaning of the quote, life is what you make it.

So anyway, a simple recall from the last few days. I had school. Nope nothing excyting happened apart from... In a moment of confidence I confided in a friend. She agreed with me which was thankful... so no more treading lightly. Don't worry it wasn't about any of you guys. All of you agree with me. I think. Just 'lol'

So this concludes this post. Now comment!

Yea you!

I love the fact that when people read my posts and then attack me for them. But without the need to make sure their point is completely unjust. Yea I said it. Now I will not name names unlike the person that had a more directive attack at me, but she has named me more than once in her previous posts.

My post before, yea it was harsh, but it was a shock to the system that should wake you up. I wish to quote it for a stronger argument. "I don't care about your crying, because you shouldn't need to be crying" and also I never said stop posting, I said your awesome.

So thank you for the blog fodder even though your idea of fodder is way of, and a message to all. Attack me and I will retaliate. Man I am grumpy... where is my coffee!

Listen up bitches and jess!

So right where do I start. This is a post aimed at me as well as you!

You need to stop crying all your life. So I am not her to give you a shoulder to cry on or listen to your sad story or other bullshit and then say everything is fine. I don't give a shit about your crying!

I don't care if you are sad... why? Because you shouldn't be sad. I know this is a serious matter and all but seriously it happens to all of us.

You know really I couldn't get a girl friend if I have tried and the one I do like is fucking miles away. My family doesn't give to shits about me and see me as extra weight. I try my hardest at school and manage to scrap through and have to listen to lectures about how they should've got excellence when you struggled to get merit. But you know what?

I AM FUCKING AWESOME

People go through this shit everyday and you know what who cares. So grab a beer and enjoy life. Celebrate those who gave there lives so we could hate ours!

You know what your real problem is, you don't want to accept that you are awesome, sad and depressed it more of your style. You go through hard times just like everyone else. So smile what decent person doesn't go through hard times all the time. Enjoy life you deserve everything you wanted from a fairy castle to that last baked bean that gets stuck in the bottom of the tin!


YOU

ARE

AWESOME

So start fucking acting it!

This applies to every reader of the blog not just one who often post her feelings and this shouldn't stop anyone from publishing what they do it is more of a shock to the system that should get them to enjoy life!

Highs and Lows

So these holz have been, well interesting.

High, feeling that it was possible.
Low, realising it is impossible and letting her go

High, earning lots of money.
Low, realising that half it has to go to petrol

High, seeing my first wild stag.
High, roaring my first wild stag
High, learning he is a 10+ pointer (big)
Mega low, can't get access to shoot him

High, every third day doing heaps around the house
Low, the other two... nothing.

I guess that one thing went well is that I made a point, and it stuck. I just hope people are aware, that's all I wanted.

So yea I am allowed a emo post to once in a while and I realised what causes them, hanging with my sisters. They just have a knack to bring me down.

Oh and I wanted to comment on so many posts over the holz but I couldn't figure out what to write so as a mass comment... *HUG*

Today

'Today is today, tomorrow is tomorrow but one day you will be close, one day soon'

Random splot over (guna try use that word every post XP)

Today went for a hunt, got a nanny. My first kill for a while. A nice clean shot, wasn't instant but she ran of the rolled down the hill. So practically.


Not that any of the readers give to shits about my day, the reason writing this post. My view still stands and I know many that agree. Not to my exact word but the same idea. So don't think you won because it went quite. The bombing of Japan was silent. So just take my voice serious.

And also, one thing that has been f'n me off, WTF does blog-fodder mean?

'Out of ammo, what did I do to deserve this'

So today I have been playing my new game Mercs 2... yes GTA but with war. My kind of game.

Go into out post with pistol and Jeep. Exit outpost with a tank. Yeah just takes a bit of strategy. Most of my games revolve around cheats. But this doesn't have any so it is a major shock to the system. But fun, I might have to try a mission 2 or 3 times but I get them.

Anyway that little splot out of the way. This mourning I was checking my traps and I got out of the car and I heard the best thing that you could hear this time of year. A stag roaring, close and not farmed. I didn't get to see him but just to know he is their is cool. Yea and I just happen to be in that area with a .222 tomorrow *cough cough*

Splot, that is a funny word.

And another thing, I am lonely. I need one of those shelia things...

Radar

I just realise radar is radar spelt backwards.

So anyway after a while of going 'under the radar' I have decided to 'pop' back up. The reason. To 'complain' about a 'friend' who offered me the 'answer' to life in her 'blog'. But it turned out to be a 'fake' statement. (yes that paragraph sounds dodgy. That was fun... not... I am in Apiti, I GET BORED!)

So what have I been doing in the holidays, my traps and yea. That sums it up. Yerp. You thought you were getting bored, try Apiti. So yea looking forward to going back to school. Sort've. It will be interesting.

Oh that brings me to a point, anyone hear of Maple Story? Well you guys are going to listen. I have had stages of my online gaming life. S1 Travian S2 Runescape S3 Diablo 2 S4 Maple Story S5 Combat Arms. Also ALOT more but they aren't good enough to mention. So anyway I played MS for a good month or 3 as an archer. Got to Lvl 34. Started on Wednesday as a Aran, apparently one of the hardest classes. Already Lvl 32 and not far off Lvl 33. Yea I rock. Not really I suck. So anyway enough of that rant. Come play Maple Story if you want. It is a 2D game but many consider it the best if the classics, 2nd only to Runescape.

Oh yea. Does anyone know what a low maintenance female is... yea I didn't think they existed!

Note to the wise [EDIT]

I am disappearing under the radar, it is for the best!
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This post deserves a song!
Pain - Three Days Grace

Easter, April Fools, Coincidence?

My theory on Easter.

It is all a conspiracy (no offence to all religious readers)

Well we all know the story of Easter, Jesus died on Easter Friday and came back to life on Easter Sunday, but little do you know, my fellow mate Jesus was a prankster back in his day, and this was his April fools prank.

He had the Roman's 'kill' him then he hid out in the cave for two days, loosing track of time and came back to life and yelled out "April fools", but little did he realise that the joke was on him. April fools is only till noon then the joke is on the prankster. So April fools Jesus.

So long live the worlds best prankster Jesus Christ (again no offence it is just a theory)

Battle orders

So yea this isn't orders, more facts.

As many can tell, 'factions' have already formed sob why not build up an argument. Many people don't see my side.

I haven't been planing this but I new something was going on, after a couple of months happened I realise what was going on. But this is where I say I am guilty, I just looked past it and moved on. It wasn't till someone wrote something that sparked a reaction, that is were I decided to act on my gut.

So anyway I came to the group and was happy, I am still happy. But I am a believer in a 'democracy' for a group. Not one where many people are scared to speak out. So this is me standing up for the group. I am not saying I want to break up the group or kick anyone out. I don't like that. I hated what happened to Sam P and I blame myself for it, even now I blame it.

So as I said before, someone said these words. "it feels like I am not apart of the main group and I am left out on everything" (or something along those lines) That got me thinking and the group was segmented. Those who got along with her and those who didn't so much, with people stepping in and out of those groups. It was always her side that won the arguments. This almost created a 'fear' of speaking out. If you don't agree, take a moment to think about it.

This created a almost head of the group. By this point you might think I want that spot, wrong. I want to get ride of what almost has formed a 'dictatorship' and create equality. The recent indecent has seen me seek advice. I turned to many of the group members and still some I want to talk to. But this is where I give you a history lesson.

The original group was formed by 4 people, 2 of them overseas and 2 still in the group. I sought advice from 3 and I am yet to talk to the 4th. All 3 I talked to shared my view and saw what was happening and was almost intimidated by her. One even said, this wasn't even the first time she has tried to shape the group into something of her own will.

So as you can see my battle is against one person. I don't want her gone, I want her to step off her high perch.

Also many people don't agree with me all the time, especially with my actions. I am not asking you to like me. I am asking you to see why I am fighting. It is not to boost myself up, but to boost everyone else up.

After writing that I have gathered the likely result of my actions, I will probably end up leaving the group rather than her and as much as I love the group I would do this but if push comes to shove. Remember one stood up to what many wouldn't and don't get pushed around.

Although many of the other side doesn't like me. Hear this, think of when it is your turn to stand up for something, you shouldn't fear the result. Be like me, stand up. This fight is not about me, it is about the group.