The Road So Far...

So I think I am guna start blogging again so this is a catch up blog:

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• The latest thing that has happened is that I got into Telford. Yes a year away from all you's. No Offence I love you's... Well most of you.
• The big count hit 15 weeks today. It's not my fault she is the one I actually can say I hate.
• X amount of people have pissed me off.
• I have pissed X amount of people off.
• One of my good mates got a new haircut and looks very attractive.
• I am going to the ball.
• Not with any of yous.
• Started clearly over hearing conversations. (man some people can be/are two faced)
• Someone told me something. x20
• Can't actually figure out who I like. That is a first
• Put a sub in my car
• Almost crashed again

and I think that is it...

Don't you mean a camp where everyone who you like goes

Life is not about the destination. Its the journey and the people in it. I am glad you could join me.

Funny

I wasn't going to write anything because you are not worth writing about, but it is funny when I am right. You become a bitch!

So instead of just mumbling like I always do...

Improvise. This message says what you want it to. Life is a canvas, paint it!

NEVER TRUST A SISTER

You all saw it... evil twit.

Holiday Update 2

So this is awsome... Hard work but fun. Up to my knees in mud.. seriously.

spent 3 hours grinding yesterday hot work. Anyway heading into town soon so I will make this quick. I want everyone to inform me of whats happening at school. Via facebook or bloggerr idc. And don't tell me nothing, there never is nothing. Something is always happening!

Just to rubb it in

Ok... at the end of this post I will explain my last post with names... yes..... since I am so far away, I am going to shake up the bottle. So to say.

First of all I want you to stop complaining of the cold. The high here today, a big 2. Yea the water around the place has been frozen for 3 days now. Stupid fog. Barley see 100m. Any way no more complaining.

My niece is soooo cute. Cute lil baby. Loving work. Have be fecial sampling the bulls. Yes, litrily taking shit from bulls. (sorry for the spelling mistakes, am using IE)

Anyway CBF typing. So here goes. By memory, Rachel, your the beutiful one. Keryn you called me stupid. Jess you are neutral. Chrissy, well that is clear. Rose... I am pretty sure that is the last one XD.

Anyhow am on dial up down here. So please leave messages since I wana hear from you. Plus I am dying for interaction from my own age so please... if you don't atleast text me (reply if'y) am in reception only when working so can only reply when slacking off so.... reply if'y, I don't slack off... to much!

Ok I am writing

You know there used to be a time I wrote because I wanted to, it just seemed natural. But now I write because I want a reaction that I don't get. Or if I do get it it goes wrong. I might just post little things of what's in my mind. The only person that will know what I am talking about each time doesn't read blogs. So sit down. Shut up. Grow up, and learn life in my eyes.

Ok first of all, why grow up. Seriously your all 16+ some of the stuff is seriously pathetic. You guys know what I am talking about.

I got called stupid the other day. By someone who couldn't tell a tooth pick from a pine tree. Yea I may not be an excellence student but I know the stuff. School is a weak point of mine because I fail to express myself via writing down test answers. Unlike you I can think out the square. You only have one group of friends. I have more and yea I have problems with allot of people. But you. The mention of your name I get teased for. It must be hell.

I refuse to make this a all negative blog post so here goes a positive stage.

You ask the world why don't you look perfect. The answer is simple. If god gave you looks to go with your personality, your kindness and your brains. You would simply be perfect. It is harsh, I know. So why don't you stop punishing your self and see your personality. It makes you the tulip in the flowerbed in my eyes.

Ok I finally figured out what to do with this post. If I think you write a blog. I am writing my opinion on. Well except one, but she can  read my other blog post for my opinion. Plus she only goes on here rarely so yea.

Now you. A bundle of talent. This one is going to be short. I have 2 more big opinions left in me so I want to save them for stronger opinions. You my friend are neutral. Some days you piss me off something chronic. Others I feel sorry for you being back in the corner. Yes I have stuck up for you in times that you don't know about and I want to keep it that way. But also I want to do it more often. So this can me called a rant, just not a strong one. Yes ok maybe I did write a bit long then I intended to but oh well.

Playing a song once is fine. Repeating the song is ok. But repeating a line of that song over and over again is. You get the picture. Now as you read this you know who this is about. So anyway, your my yin to my yang. I still find you as my friend but you are everything I stand against in this group. The bullying, the immatureness and the intimidation to name a few. Yea I have wrote all this before but I feel I need to again. You just seem to stir until you get a bite, then play the helpless damsel  and expect sympathy. A long time ago I have been sick of the shit you cause. You treat me like a useless piece of shit and expect a friendly reception. I have often held this back and only told this next part to a few people but now I am going to put my head on the chopping block and just say it. So what is this. You preach me about my relationships when you have only had one, and not a very good one at that. So what if none of mine work. Take a look at yours, you're fucking kidding yourself if you think it is going to work. Seriously he treats you like shit and you just call it a phase and that it will get better when you get together. But seriously if you don't wake up and smell the coffee and you are going to ruin your life. I know it sounds harsh but someone has to tell you. You have expected way too much out off your first relationships. Now you are going to comment about how it will work and what will I know. Allot more than what you. All I say is look at what you have told me and see it from my point of view. Now I realise when you might read this he could be there. So do I regret writing it. No I don't. Ok my head is on the block and now I hand you the sword. It is your mood.

Wow that is one long paragraph. I left you to last for a reason. I wanted to go out on a positive spin. So here goes. You are the main reason I stick around. You are one off my best friends. People think there is more but there isn't. All that we have been through it has pulled us together. So what if we talk , is it a crime for a guy and girl to talk without being madly in love. So I used  up the last of my writing power in the last post. So you know for your self what you mean to me.

So this was one long post. And it just turned out the way it did. Perfect way to vent what I was feeling. You all know who I am talking about in each paragraph. So thank you for reading.

Opps

I didn't realise my blog was still private.... there you go enjoy your reading

Note

How come I am constantly getting told off. What ever I do I get in trouble. So what if I talk to her, she is one of the few reasons that I am still hanging out in the group. So what if I don't want to sit next to her. I hate her guts. So what if I am asking questions. Although I may not understand, I am learning your way of thinking. Just give me time. So what if you don't think I am funny, everyone thinks you are a giant douche'. This is so pathetic and... how would you say, shooting geese with a BB gun. Pointless and impossible!

Surprise

So this is strange... why such a random post... because I wanted to write letters. Instead of Roses idea thing I will use my own. More notes then letters.

1. Best Friend
Someone I can turn to in my darkest time only to be reminded of my greatest times.

2. A enemy
Wow, funny to term you this but really you are. No matter how hard I fight it you are. Someone that makes my blood boil on sight. Something unique, but still from strength to strength eh?

3. Competition (2  notes)
Another strong minded person. Opposite in ideas, we clash constantly. Right or wrong we are alike. Only to fight with you will make my day.

I almost fear you but when I discover your weakness I plan to use it. Let me know, I have nothing against you it is just that you have something against me!

4.Support
For someone that is always there I sure treat you like shit

5.Supported
You know there was a moment that I was welling to let you fall but then there was the spark that I have seen in you for as long as I have known you. No matter what keep that spark close and glowing. You turned to me in the time of your deepest need and I answered. I provided you a rope to escape the well. Only to drop the rope while you were climbing. Let me say now. I lend you my ladder, much easier to climb than a rope.

6. Crush
If only I can drop the past and grow some balls eh? Just give me time!

7.Ex
People say it was nothing but I beg to differ. They don't realise how much I gave to it, and how little you gave back. I am over but still I envy it as I remember the past time. Maybe one day you can return what was mine to keep.

8.Fling
Honestly, I make mistakes. But seriously why this one.

9. The Star in my mind
If only you didn't move. When me meet it was great, I took to you like a match to hay. Then you jumped on your plane. We still talk but I still don't like it because it remindeds me of what I could of had if you had of stayed. The person I can stay up to 4 o'clock talking to and I have before. Maybe when you come back it can be different. Until then, heres to you. The star just out of reach.

10 letters to 10 different people. Enjoy

Insert A title

So I have been dreading breaking my 69 posts in this blog but now I have 70.

Nothing much happening, school and lending my shoulder for peepz to cry on.

The reason for this post.

All you have a mission.

Grab a piece of paper and write 'I AM AWESOME' on it in big writing and put it somewhere where you will see it every morning before you have a chance to thing 'bad' thoughts. Like on your mirror. This is no joke. Do it. Leave it for a week and see how your self confidence improves. Just do it, ALL OF YOU

I am serious. Do it!

My 133th post

Crowded streets are cleared away
One by One
Hollow heroes separate
As they run

You're so cold
Keep your hand in mine
Wise men wonder while
Strong men die

Show me how it ends it's alright
Show me how defenceless you really are
satisfied and empty inside
Well, that's alright, let's give this another try

If you find your family, don't you cry
In this land of make-believe, dead and dry

You're so cold, but you feel alive
Lay your hand on me one last time

Show me how it ends it's alright
Show me how defenceless you really are
satisfied and empty inside
Well, that's alright, let's give this another try

Show me how it ends it's alright
Show me how defenseless you really are
satisfied and empty inside
Well, that's alright, let's give this another try

It's alright

The kiwi and a cat

"A rose is a key, in the hands of the a poet"

So this is a thought, pretty much a inspiration to all. Even though this week is a major improvement from last. People still need to cheer up more. The meaning of the quote, life is what you make it.

So anyway, a simple recall from the last few days. I had school. Nope nothing excyting happened apart from... In a moment of confidence I confided in a friend. She agreed with me which was thankful... so no more treading lightly. Don't worry it wasn't about any of you guys. All of you agree with me. I think. Just 'lol'

So this concludes this post. Now comment!

Yea you!

I love the fact that when people read my posts and then attack me for them. But without the need to make sure their point is completely unjust. Yea I said it. Now I will not name names unlike the person that had a more directive attack at me, but she has named me more than once in her previous posts.

My post before, yea it was harsh, but it was a shock to the system that should wake you up. I wish to quote it for a stronger argument. "I don't care about your crying, because you shouldn't need to be crying" and also I never said stop posting, I said your awesome.

So thank you for the blog fodder even though your idea of fodder is way of, and a message to all. Attack me and I will retaliate. Man I am grumpy... where is my coffee!

Listen up bitches and jess!

So right where do I start. This is a post aimed at me as well as you!

You need to stop crying all your life. So I am not her to give you a shoulder to cry on or listen to your sad story or other bullshit and then say everything is fine. I don't give a shit about your crying!

I don't care if you are sad... why? Because you shouldn't be sad. I know this is a serious matter and all but seriously it happens to all of us.

You know really I couldn't get a girl friend if I have tried and the one I do like is fucking miles away. My family doesn't give to shits about me and see me as extra weight. I try my hardest at school and manage to scrap through and have to listen to lectures about how they should've got excellence when you struggled to get merit. But you know what?

I AM FUCKING AWESOME

People go through this shit everyday and you know what who cares. So grab a beer and enjoy life. Celebrate those who gave there lives so we could hate ours!

You know what your real problem is, you don't want to accept that you are awesome, sad and depressed it more of your style. You go through hard times just like everyone else. So smile what decent person doesn't go through hard times all the time. Enjoy life you deserve everything you wanted from a fairy castle to that last baked bean that gets stuck in the bottom of the tin!


YOU

ARE

AWESOME

So start fucking acting it!

This applies to every reader of the blog not just one who often post her feelings and this shouldn't stop anyone from publishing what they do it is more of a shock to the system that should get them to enjoy life!

Highs and Lows

So these holz have been, well interesting.

High, feeling that it was possible.
Low, realising it is impossible and letting her go

High, earning lots of money.
Low, realising that half it has to go to petrol

High, seeing my first wild stag.
High, roaring my first wild stag
High, learning he is a 10+ pointer (big)
Mega low, can't get access to shoot him

High, every third day doing heaps around the house
Low, the other two... nothing.

I guess that one thing went well is that I made a point, and it stuck. I just hope people are aware, that's all I wanted.

So yea I am allowed a emo post to once in a while and I realised what causes them, hanging with my sisters. They just have a knack to bring me down.

Oh and I wanted to comment on so many posts over the holz but I couldn't figure out what to write so as a mass comment... *HUG*

Today

'Today is today, tomorrow is tomorrow but one day you will be close, one day soon'

Random splot over (guna try use that word every post XP)

Today went for a hunt, got a nanny. My first kill for a while. A nice clean shot, wasn't instant but she ran of the rolled down the hill. So practically.


Not that any of the readers give to shits about my day, the reason writing this post. My view still stands and I know many that agree. Not to my exact word but the same idea. So don't think you won because it went quite. The bombing of Japan was silent. So just take my voice serious.

And also, one thing that has been f'n me off, WTF does blog-fodder mean?

'Out of ammo, what did I do to deserve this'

So today I have been playing my new game Mercs 2... yes GTA but with war. My kind of game.

Go into out post with pistol and Jeep. Exit outpost with a tank. Yeah just takes a bit of strategy. Most of my games revolve around cheats. But this doesn't have any so it is a major shock to the system. But fun, I might have to try a mission 2 or 3 times but I get them.

Anyway that little splot out of the way. This mourning I was checking my traps and I got out of the car and I heard the best thing that you could hear this time of year. A stag roaring, close and not farmed. I didn't get to see him but just to know he is their is cool. Yea and I just happen to be in that area with a .222 tomorrow *cough cough*

Splot, that is a funny word.

And another thing, I am lonely. I need one of those shelia things...

Radar

I just realise radar is radar spelt backwards.

So anyway after a while of going 'under the radar' I have decided to 'pop' back up. The reason. To 'complain' about a 'friend' who offered me the 'answer' to life in her 'blog'. But it turned out to be a 'fake' statement. (yes that paragraph sounds dodgy. That was fun... not... I am in Apiti, I GET BORED!)

So what have I been doing in the holidays, my traps and yea. That sums it up. Yerp. You thought you were getting bored, try Apiti. So yea looking forward to going back to school. Sort've. It will be interesting.

Oh that brings me to a point, anyone hear of Maple Story? Well you guys are going to listen. I have had stages of my online gaming life. S1 Travian S2 Runescape S3 Diablo 2 S4 Maple Story S5 Combat Arms. Also ALOT more but they aren't good enough to mention. So anyway I played MS for a good month or 3 as an archer. Got to Lvl 34. Started on Wednesday as a Aran, apparently one of the hardest classes. Already Lvl 32 and not far off Lvl 33. Yea I rock. Not really I suck. So anyway enough of that rant. Come play Maple Story if you want. It is a 2D game but many consider it the best if the classics, 2nd only to Runescape.

Oh yea. Does anyone know what a low maintenance female is... yea I didn't think they existed!

Note to the wise [EDIT]

I am disappearing under the radar, it is for the best!
[EDIT]
This post deserves a song!
Pain - Three Days Grace

Easter, April Fools, Coincidence?

My theory on Easter.

It is all a conspiracy (no offence to all religious readers)

Well we all know the story of Easter, Jesus died on Easter Friday and came back to life on Easter Sunday, but little do you know, my fellow mate Jesus was a prankster back in his day, and this was his April fools prank.

He had the Roman's 'kill' him then he hid out in the cave for two days, loosing track of time and came back to life and yelled out "April fools", but little did he realise that the joke was on him. April fools is only till noon then the joke is on the prankster. So April fools Jesus.

So long live the worlds best prankster Jesus Christ (again no offence it is just a theory)

Battle orders

So yea this isn't orders, more facts.

As many can tell, 'factions' have already formed sob why not build up an argument. Many people don't see my side.

I haven't been planing this but I new something was going on, after a couple of months happened I realise what was going on. But this is where I say I am guilty, I just looked past it and moved on. It wasn't till someone wrote something that sparked a reaction, that is were I decided to act on my gut.

So anyway I came to the group and was happy, I am still happy. But I am a believer in a 'democracy' for a group. Not one where many people are scared to speak out. So this is me standing up for the group. I am not saying I want to break up the group or kick anyone out. I don't like that. I hated what happened to Sam P and I blame myself for it, even now I blame it.

So as I said before, someone said these words. "it feels like I am not apart of the main group and I am left out on everything" (or something along those lines) That got me thinking and the group was segmented. Those who got along with her and those who didn't so much, with people stepping in and out of those groups. It was always her side that won the arguments. This almost created a 'fear' of speaking out. If you don't agree, take a moment to think about it.

This created a almost head of the group. By this point you might think I want that spot, wrong. I want to get ride of what almost has formed a 'dictatorship' and create equality. The recent indecent has seen me seek advice. I turned to many of the group members and still some I want to talk to. But this is where I give you a history lesson.

The original group was formed by 4 people, 2 of them overseas and 2 still in the group. I sought advice from 3 and I am yet to talk to the 4th. All 3 I talked to shared my view and saw what was happening and was almost intimidated by her. One even said, this wasn't even the first time she has tried to shape the group into something of her own will.

So as you can see my battle is against one person. I don't want her gone, I want her to step off her high perch.

Also many people don't agree with me all the time, especially with my actions. I am not asking you to like me. I am asking you to see why I am fighting. It is not to boost myself up, but to boost everyone else up.

After writing that I have gathered the likely result of my actions, I will probably end up leaving the group rather than her and as much as I love the group I would do this but if push comes to shove. Remember one stood up to what many wouldn't and don't get pushed around.

Although many of the other side doesn't like me. Hear this, think of when it is your turn to stand up for something, you shouldn't fear the result. Be like me, stand up. This fight is not about me, it is about the group.

The Pine

So I will tell you a simple fact

So a tree, a pine
Cut of the 'lower' branches
the tree will grow tall
segmented
and easy to break
One branch above the others

Now cut off the terminal branch,
The tree will grow wide
and strong, equal

No simple wind will blow over that tree

Alex... You lost too... Yerp!

So today, 6th day in the row getting up at 6:30, had a shower and went to Bens. After that ventured into fielding, Explored the garage sails. Then walked lengths of the town before raiding Liz's. Turns out she keeps fish next to the stove for fast cooking, has a fishing cat and also a pelican... WTF?

So then we went to pick up Rose from the place with the two arses. Awkward 101. A very quite car ride with Liz's sister rolling her eyes at me more times then the wheels turned. So there we were on our way to the world famous, freaky, WHITE plaza. Man I got lost.

So it was pretty easy to decide we should watch a movie.... the hard part was which one. We decided on the hurt locker with a close 2nd of men who stare at goats *cough cough*

So we had time to kill and once we figured out how to get back home. We did some window shopping if you know what I mean.

Yea the rest is pretty much useless info apart from that I got bested by 4 lil tiny pieces of fudge. I was shocked. And btw hurt locker is awesome. I want to shoot goats like the ones on there... about 15 .223 bullets right around them and they barely moved.

So yea I can say I actually enjoyed palmy for once... *brag over*

Foot note

I just realised the last post got more sympathy for the moose than for me

What comes up must go down!

This is my formal-ish my apologies to the people I spent the afternoon with. I wanted to be happy I really did but I found it impossible. Something bugged me. A couple of people know why I should've been happy but I couldn't. Even with who was there. I just couldn't. The reason?

Ok it started in maths. (tune out here if you want)

Someone got a achieved in her test. How could she. This is a tragedy. Everyone around her got similar grade but she cant accept the fact that she got an achieved since she tries. News flash bitch. So does everyone else. Be happy with your fucking grade and even if you aren't don't fucking bring everyone else down!

And yes there is more. Ag, a subject I really try to get good grades in. I slaved my ass out and only got an achieved. She happened to get a merit, but that wasn't good enough was it. No way, she needed an excellence. Hence the really origin of the world renowned moose. As in the god boy, my protection trick as such. One way to block out the fact that she isn't doing well enough even though she does better than me, and when she gets the same grade. Woah! stop the world something must be wrong!

She just doesn't get the fact that other people try as well and just accept the fact and even if you don't... don't bring others down.

The moose has another reason, it cheers people up. But it is so immature so 2 people in our group stop me doing it (Rebecca this isn't you) even though it cheers up the most depressed members of our group, and our group can get really depressed at times. So who cares if someone tries cheer people up, its immature and since were all like 16 and 17 we have to be so mature because we are in the big wide world and people being depressed obviously don't want to be cheered up! (sarcasm in that last statement)

(tune back in here)

So that was my bitch and I really do feel sorry for being a downer. O really should've been happy since Liz was there, and also I had energy drink and chocolate. Also I brought Band of Brothers and I am still downer. That is a testament to how much I am affected buy this! I tried people, I tried to cheer you guys up but obviously it isn't good enough!

Hey hey... I am in computers, and I am a moose!

Fence Post

So this post is really post to try and encourage you guys, and Rachel XP to right more blogs. ENCOURAGE

I am sure there is a random fish controling the world

So I think I have enough stuff to write about (3 things)

Item 1= As a update from the last post. Me and mum are booking the flights for October so I can go to the Telford taster week. And just so you guys know this will almost defently be my last year at school. Even though I am academicly able(to much of some of your guys surprises) I am defently not academicly focused... at all.

Item 2= I was talking to my brother  last night and he offered for me to come and stay in the July holidays for some work and no dout about it a hunt of some sort. I love it down there and that's not all, mum offered to pay for my flights down south, and to Telford. YES

Now Item 3= the reason  I was talking to my brother. On Saturday the ram got out, yea no big deal but since it is tupping (yes Firefox it is a word) he is territorial and took to our goat. Turns out angry ram + tied up goat= sore ram( thanks to me) + unicorn... yes our goat is a unicorn. It took allot to get the ram away from him but he has now had a horn broken of at the skull. Tomorrow night Brett is coming to look at the goat but it will probably end up with him getting shot so it is sad

So my weekend has been filled with highs and lows

Normal essay... I mean blog

So as my 102nd post It deserves a 'normal' approach. 3 things are happening in my life, life troubles, gun troubles and girl troubles.

So first of all I will explain the life issue. Today at lunch I went to the Telford meeting and it looks cool. I also read up of scholarships and costs and it doesn't actually seem impossible. More like easy and fun so I am going to try and go to the October since it will only cost me about $400. So I think I might actually go to a training school straight after school. Allot to think about and I am excited.

Now this will be the paragraph most of you will skip so stop reading here. Anyway for those who are interested. I was going to get the SKS SA 7.62x39 which is cheep but hard to find ammo. Basically my brother said I shouldn't and go for a bolt action. This is when I turned to Reloaders and found the Mossberg 4x4 in 25-06 for $865 Synthetic and Blued. This is more expensive than the SKS but is a bolt action and a easier cal.

Now, all those who are going to bitch about/be offended by my love life stop reading here. Did you guys really think I would post this on her. Don't make me laugh. This is something people know about but also thanks to someone's blog, allot more people will realise. So I shall end this topic here.

This concludes my essay, I mean blog and I am in a really  good mood so if anyone wants something done ask now and then I shall spear your feelings when I say no XP. I am guessing you guys only read the first paragraph.

The 100th post.

So with this I say my 100th post(between both blogs)

I anonce that I have decided to open my doors. The persuading comment. Jose. Thanks for them they helped and you should ignore me I vote for Alec the drama king

Fate of this blog

So I have had allot of people ask me not to close this down.

I still will it just needs to be done ok.

I wanted to do it for a long time and there is a time to end everything. Words hurt and this is a way to minimise the pain.

So unless someone convinces me otherwise, tommorow night is the end.

Note

To all those who accuse me for being a snob (rose)

I have a new MSN!

Clearing things up

So this is a post to clear up reasons of why I did what I did

My actions are just, to have someone ask you for help and then you give them help is fine. But for them to give up hope and reject that help because it was hard. That is the reason why I am not guna help said person with her issues. It is ok to ask for help. You guys will think my actions are wrong. They are not. I want to help but if someone doesn't meet me half way I refuse to do so.

Now me closing my blog, A couple of days a mate asked for help. Everyone helped so I thought I could get help from an issue I have. Only one person 'helped' and it strongly sounded like said person was trying to have a go at me.

The well of life will remain closed and the hunters blade will be closed on  Saturday night so all can get a chance to view this post.

"end of bureaucracy"

More updates may be posted before Saturday

...

Nah fuck this... ask for advice get shot down... conceder my blogs closed

Anger is a weapon for pain

So... I write this in computers... after listening to people talk about me behind my back and it is so *&^% (blog censored due to school computers)

What I said was harsh but I am sick of seeing people give up on themselves

And plus people give people advice in support and then shoot me down. I agree with ben (*^^**&(* *&(*Y )

Song. Which I am listening to

Slow Chemical - Finger Eleven

advice

So me is in a pickle...

Mmmmmm pickle

No Alex this is a serious post!

I wana know what does it mean when you like 2 people, one is so close, the other is so far away

Just like the above issue, I have 2 songs

Forget it - Breaking Benjamin
Slow Chemical - Finger Eleven

THIS IS SPARTA... yea maybe not

So this weekend has been awesome...

So much to think about!

So much information from a friend and learnt allot about said friend.

Next weekend has the potential to be better, working. Yes! Build up the guns (ladies magnets)

You guys would know that I have my tough times. This is defently not one of then. Awesome!

But what I need is sleep, that is if I can pry myself away from msn.

The song for this post... is tough.

Forget it - Breaking Benjamin

The Key To Life

 Well...

Mega awesome weekend. So far that is. All it takes is food (endless supply from mum) coke facebook and a good friend.

Oh the stories.

Too bad, too bad.

Guy stuff XD

Song...
Show me how to live - Audioslave

Boobies

I can say that I spent the afternoon playing with breasts. Not that will appeal to any of the readers since the only readers are girls.

Got my self an afternoon job for a while, shit job, shit pay.

The song for this very short post
The Pretender - Foo Fighters

The Tears of the Lost

So today full of energy thanks to 2 energy drinks.

Found out that no one noticed me at lunch. Yay for me. Finish/started dovetail joint. Finally.

I am stopping this daily blog hence the lack of the date and only posting when I want. I hope that suit your expectations since my other style hasn't.

Any how I am still going to do a song a post
Freak - Silverchair

27 Feb-1 March - 3 Day week end

So now I think I have enough to write about

On Saturday slept, got up and when for a goat shoot. Saw nothing, not a single goat. 4 hours walking for nothing. 4 hours walking in midday heat. A didn't see a single goat. Then I went to Ben's and blew/lit stiff on fire.

On Sunday got home, slept. Then wired extra speakers into my stereo.

Today, slept. Went to town. Slept. Now just finished some more firewood and found out that my stereo cant handle two extra speakers. It goes into 'protection mode'

So now I have to go back to school and get given shit for various reasons, and then go to see my mates then get given more shit. Cant wait.

Things to do, sleep. I need more sleep.

Songs, for numerous reasons.
Show Me How To Live - Audioslave
Epiphany - Staind
Dance With You - Live
I Feel You - 3 Doors Down
Little Things - Good Charlotte

26 Feb - Slide

Today was, well to put it nicely. It sucked. Way to boring. Nothing exciting, seriously nothing. Not at all.

The only reason I wanted I am writing this is to not miss a day.

The song?
Slide - Goo Goo Dolls

25 Feb - ERROR, Almost

I was going to do another post like yesterday because to say the least I had a great day. But I am serious fucked off!

Why?

• I am sick of people making jokes at my expense. As a mate pointed out was obvious, and I don't mean this in a mean way but she isn't really social. She still is awesome but she is quite and keeps her head low and even she noticed so it can't be too hard to notice
• I am sick of people  talking about me/laughing at me while I am not even in the conversation, So tempting to smack someone
• I wish I had a third reason so this argument sounded better

So I will do a song
Down Poison - 3 Doors Down

24 Feb - ERROR

This comment has been removed due to large amounts of frustration at the moment.

23 Feb - 2nd

FUCKING AMAZING to say the least.

Now I get the idea people arn't listening to the songs so I am guna post the lyrics of yesterdays song

all the tension in the world today
all the little girls fillin up the world today
when the good comes to bad the bad comes to good
but im a live my life like i should (like i should)
now all the critics wanna hit it
shit can ever did it
just because they dont get it
but ill stay fitted
knew there commited
now this red cap gets a wrap from these critics
do we always gotta cry (gotta cry)
do we always gotta live inside a lie (live inside a lie)
lifes just a blast
its movin really fast
better stay on top
or life will kick you in the ass
follow me into a solo
remember that,kid
so what you wanna do
and where you gonna run
when your starin down the cable of my
might put it at your grill like gun
Limp Bizkit is rockin the set
its like russian roulette
when your placin your bet
so dont be upset
when your broke
and your done
cuz im a be the one til i jet(im a be the one til i jet)
i know why you wanna hate me
i know why you wanna hate me
i know why you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
i know why you wanna hate me
i know why you wanna hate me
now i know why you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
why you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
why you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
does anybody really know the secret
or the combination for this life
and where they keep it
its kinda sad when u dont know the meanin
but everything happens for a reason (everything happens for a reason)
i dont even know what i should say
cause im an idiot
a loser, microphone abuser
i analyze every second i exist
beatin on my mind every second with my fists
and everybody wanna run (wanna run)
everybody wanna hide from the gun (hide from the gun)
you can take a ride through this life if you want
but you cant take the edge off the knife (no sir)
and now you want your money back (money back)
but your denied cause your brains fried from the sack
and there aint nothin i can do
cause life is a lesson
you learn it when your through
i know why you wanna hate me (wanna hate me)
i know why you wanna hate me (know why you wanna hate me)
i know why you wanna hate me (know why you wanna hate me)
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
i know why you wanna hate me (why you wanna hate me)
i know why you wanna hate me (you wanna hate me)
now i know why you wanna hate me (wanna hate me)
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
know why you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
know you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
now i know why
now i know why
now i know why
now i know why
now i know why you wanna hate me
now i know why you wanna hate me
now i know why you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately

Yea it is long but true

And now the song for today the 2nd most played  song on my ipod
My Generation - Limp Bizkit

22 Feb - Scorpin Ready To Sting

So today, fucking amazing to say the least. Awesome in every sense of the word. Today I have seen people depressed, struggling, taking control, over thinking and just been plain bitchy. To all those people I say fuck it. To day has been awesome. This week is guna be awesome. Freedom, support, and a conflict. These are only understood by me and me alone.

So that's enough about our group. Thanks to days of, I have a pile of home work due tomorrow. Also no one guessed what the title meant. So where do I get my title from today?

Song. Legend of a song, perfect for this moment. Perfect for our group
Take a Look Around - Limp Bizkit

21 Feb - Light Tank of the GLA

So today did nothing, why?

Because I wanted a slow day, for once.

Anyhow one thing I have did was move the cows off the turnips, running through turnips is hard, chasing cows around a hill is worse, doing them both together, lets just say, colourful words.

Spent the afternoon laxing out and thinking about the past and yes I agree with some off the remarks made about me so I  guess you can say I am guna change.

Oh and a note, I didn't write that poem in yesterdays post, it seems like some people thought I did. I wish I did, but I didn't.

Yea also I am dropping the high and low thing since, yea it was just pointless.

Anyhow also I wanted to ask you guys what my blog was like now since I have changed it?

Also bonus prize for the person who figures out where my title of this post came from.

Song - Someday - Nickelback

20 Feb - This is surprising

 So today I was guuna go for a goat shoot but the guy I was going with didn't have any petrol. Last night was certinly 'interesting' to say the least. Before tea I was moving firewood from about 5 to 9 without a tea stop. It was just the fustrated mood I was in. I only stopped because I ran out of fire wood to move. It was tempting to move it all out of the shed and start again. But then the light had faded so I went in side.

The events that followed were a shell shocking experience which I still haven't gotten to grips with sort of. I feel free. Found out two of my ex's hate me. This would annoy most. But nah it is refreshing. I am actually pleased. That feeling of freedom. Not having to worry about stepping on your ex's toes for when the next girl comes along. Which with recent information doesn't seem to far off if that is what I want.

This brings me to another point I wanted to say. On Thursday in group I saw a poster that meant allot

'How are you going to discover new ocean's if you don't lose sight of the shore'

 This has a clear message and I speaks to me allot. I know people have been telling me to be positive. But my own words don't help me. But this saying did, it helped ALLOT actually.

Now another thing I wanted to say. People have asked me where I have gotten my poems from or what is my inspiration. My inspiration is this poem here
THE GOLDEN ANTLERED STAG

Out upon the southern rangers,
In the land of bush and snow
Lived an old and malformed stag
Who had many wounds to show

Resting in the blue-grass basin
Near his favourite water hole
He was thinking of the Golden-
Antlered Stag of long ago

When a little flock of keas
Settled on the rock above him
So he bade them to come near
That his story they might hear

Fly down here, pretty keas
And my story I'll unfold
Of the famous thirty-pointer
Who had antlers of pure gold

And the flock of mountain birds
Drew around in manner mild
Then the ancient stag addresses them
In the language of the wilds

He was first seen by the Maoris
In the days of long ago
And strange rumours spread about him
Reached the men who lust for gold

Out they come with many horses
Loaded high with food and guns
And by strange and varied courses
Went upon his trail at once

Butchers, bakers, cabinetmakers
Bookies, Blacksmith, two-up kings
And one ancient undertaker
Swelled the crowd that hunted him

Total war was nothing to it
'Twas not safe to show outside'
For the mob had started shooting
Anything they saw on sight

Station owners got the wind up
For the casualties now ran
Seven dogs and sixteen horses
Twenty cattle and a man

But old golden antlers beat them
To a marathon did treat them
Stalk for hours then they'd see him
On a mountain miles away

One by one they grew disheartened
Worn out by the greed of gain
And the stag when they departed
Still the monarch of the range

And if moonlight flying
You should chance to settle by him
Do not fear to see him vanish
Like a phantom in the sky

Out upon the southern ranger
In New Zealand's no-man's-land
Roams the stag with golden antlers
Stalkers get him if you can

19 Feb - How is it always like this?

I liked being happy!

Now everything is against me. I think everyone knows that feeling.

Yea I know think positive. But that is hard sometimes when it seems like the world is out there.

In a way you could say I am like Mum. I believe there is something out there, just not god as such. I would like to have a religion, something to escape to when I feel like this.

Anyhow, didn't go to school today, and instead did a rubbish run and a load of firewood. Part of the agreement to get a day of school.

Tomorrow I am going for a goat shoot with a mate, Hopefully will give  me a escape. This mate isn't from our group so there will be no drama  which would be the best part of it.

And last of, how come it is you realise what you want, only when you can't have it?

I think I might spend this afternoon playing around with layouts. It should take my mind of thing(s)

High - Getting of school

Low - Waking up

Song - Here is Gone - Goo Goo Dolls

18 Feb - Little Things Mean the Most

So today. School as normal but really, who cares about that, the reason I read blog I think is the same reason that you guys read this so I am not guna bother saying about school.

Yesterdays post mentioned that I would get annoyed at some one,  I would like to mention, that was a total understatement. It was hard to even look at said person today. But any how.

I actually talk to someone about an issue I have kept secret for a while and this is a note for that person to keep it between us and only us.

So yea I am still pissed of because I still don't know and it is a piece to a jigsaw, I need the truth. GAH!

Anyhow before I say anything I regret

High - Talking to someone at lunch

Low - seeing the person in the comment in the 2nd paragraph

Song - Little Things - Good Charlotte

17 Feb - GAH!!!!

Well today was fun even though it was fucking annoying. The girls were useless at farm duty. Ok I stuffed while pressing a bale but at least I did everything else right. Any way enough of the moaning. I am in a sort of good mood but that wont last. Some one tonight I know well piss me off so yea why try putting on a act. I need one more piece to the jigsaw. Now give me that piece. Yea, someone should realise what that means. Any how, back to school tomorrow *snore*

High - Finding out that most of my farm duties have been straight 10's

Low - Fucking up that bale

Song - Not Enough - 3 Doors Down

16 Feb - 4 to 2... That doesn't work

So today had farm duty. Real easy, pressing in the morning, that was it. Get full control of the shed tomorrow. Now that is power. So that was my day.

High - Farm duty

Low - None

Song - Changes - 3 Doors Down

15 Feb - The day of awareness

So today is like any other day except for the fact I am in a open mood. So now is the time. The time for what you may ask. For picking fights when you want to know something. Today is a day I will tell it as it be. So use this as you may.

High - Finishing the Chem practical first

Low - Getting half wrong

Song - Bad day - Fuel

14 Feb - This was a day

So today. Woke up earlier than planned but oh well. Ended up doing some more firewood but this time its alright since it is ours.  It is easy to say I am in a weird mood (things/people piss me off allot easier) So it is safe to say I am annoyed. I am not to sure what else to write.

Highs - (blank)

Low - Smacking my foot with my axe

Song (just because its awesome) - Like a Stone - Audioslave

13 Feb - It sounded like a good idea

Last time I will walk for 4 hours carrying 2 guns. Fuck my shoulder is sore. Only got 3 goats. 2 were shot by me. One with a .222 at about 30m and the 2nd with the .22 at 50m. We could've had a fourth but then my sisters boy friend's dog ran after it so we lost the perfect shot with the .222. Oh well. Try again next week end. For now, its rest, and maybe a few beers. While I wait for the shower.

So that is all that happened today. In a slightly better mood then last night. Only just though.

High - Smoking that goat with the .22/ directing Doug with 2 words and a finger movement and he ended up exactly were I told him to go.

Low - THAT FUCKING DOG

Song - Heaven - Live

12 Feb - Negitive side of a positive day

For those who haven't notice yet. My blog is becoming 'perfect'. I'm writing it as you guys want. I'm stopping my poems because there was too many of them also, spell checking it because spelling is so important. And finally taking everything that is my style of writing and replacing it to be normal. So welcome to my new blog. Honestly, Fuck you guys (temporary it will past) This blog is about me and me alone but I will make it like you want it because I'm fucked up like that and honestly, this blog and my poetry was the last bit of originality left for me but like a good fucking boy I will listen and change it. So  welcome again to a normal blog where everything is normal. A double post for the day but there was two completely different moods to today. My blog has officially lost all effectiveness to it and you guys might as well write it because then it would be fucking perfect. Like you guys are.

Song, finally I get a good post for this song
Bother - Stone Sour

12 Feb - *whistle* twirl of the hand and bang bang goes five guns

So today; finally got to go for a shoot, 30 goats later. This wasn't like the last shoot where they ran towards us. This was shooting through scrub and across valleys but we got our goats. Still didnt cut any up but I will get my car then it will be afternoon hunts with the .222 and the .22, good fun. AND we run out of salami. Stupid brother.

Basically all that happened. Me and mum are the only ones who can keep Lil Josie happy. GO ME. She loves her uncle.

High - Being the first one to the goats, i.e the fastest runner

Low - Being the last to shoot. Stupid gun

Song - Blaze of Glory - Bon Jovi

11 Feb - Complaints

So now for a while I am guna leave a list of complaints until i stop getting pissed of
-stop trying to spell check everything. Get the fuck over yourselfs who gives a shit. there is alot more things in life better than spelling. Go spell check your own blogs.
-write a manuel on how to understand females. Honestly can you complicate things any more
-The person who invented blisters is a cunt

Now anyway. positive things. a good day 2moro. get to go shoot stuff, i have plenty of faces to picture.

Today was pointless. waste of time.

High - telling a guy that keryn gives the best blow jobs
Low - wanting to punch everyone but a few people in our group in the face today

Song -
Its been a while - Staind

10 Feb - IM USING COMMA'S

So, today i have gotten a lecture or 1,927 of them about my blog so i am taking it into concideration,

Anyway today in ag we learnt why your lambs dying on you is not a good thing, no shit surlock

Got home, not going for a goat shoot, but someone seems enthused to talk to me for once, so spoz you can say things worked out all right

Gotten home to my neice who is currently trying to get to the couch, so cute!!!!

But uncle al doesnt like bounce as much as her, its hard work

High = Seeing my lil Josie
Low = Getting a splinter, its been a good day

Song of the day
Selling the Drama - Live

9 Feb - They say ah

So today.... pointless.... nothing excyting happened.... no grudges to hold.... no crushes to hint... just a day....

Oh yea... in chem first time asking a serious question..... i get mocked.... WTF.... ok it had nothing to do with chem but it was serious....

High - writing a poem before breakfast

Low - finding out that ben gets paid for giving his father a hand in the butchery.... if ya know what i mean

Song
So Cold - Breaking Benjamin

8 Feb - God save.... Fred????

So anyway today.... alright today.... only wanted to punch 3 people in our group.... all time record... any how

Im finding it hard to write a blog since i dont have anything to complain about... oh i smacked a yr 11.... serves him right for reading my texts.... dont think hell sit next to me again.... complains???? nah didnt think so...

One thing today i had is the need... the need for speed.... but yea i still wish i had further to drive home...

So anyhow since i droped the thought of a day idea im guna do todays high and todays low... and i think you guys should too...... it will be imformitive

High - Thinking the most awsome coment in english.... 3rd formers were walking past our english room(noisily) and everyone was 'reading' and i was so tempted to say.... QUITE PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO SLEEP
Low - On the bus ride home it felt like my left one was in a vice.... ouch it really hurts

Song of the day.... no reason.... i have just listened to it about 8 times already today
Like a Stone - Audioslave

Oh yea and if you guys are still reading this.... just leave a coment.... im curious to see who ACTUALLY reads it

7 Feb - Cutie

So today.... split some more firewood and yea thats the only thing productive i did....

But i did go see my niece..... cute lil jumper she is.... she didnt like me this time...

so yea today is what you would call un eventful but yea i did read a quote from somewhere

'Dream as if you will live for every... but live as if you will die tomorow'

Im just pissed that i cant claim that as my own inspirational quote.... but yea I thought it will help a few people as they seem to be going through a hard time at the moment..... teenaged girls eh.... you gota..... well yea.... lets just leave it as that....

Song of the day
Meant to Live - Switchfoot

6 Feb - Fence stops rolling rings

So today... been doing firewood...  the fence stops the rings from rolling... too bad its at the bootom of the hill instead of the top... so i had to get the rings and carry them up.... and they are not light rings even... its a good work out.... it will help me build some musle for.... yes when i thought this.... my head sed her name.... but yea that ship has sailed.... so this is when i realised i need to get over my self.... so thats what i did...

So i am starting each week new... cutting loose ends and going for gold.... no ristrictions no red tape just go for it.... hopefully this will work out better than likeing someone for a year.... finally going out with them.... and having them just chuck you out like last nights newspapper....

So this is me starting in a new frame of mind starting now.... thinking of goals.... hmmm

Things i learnt today
- rings hurt when roll over foot
-axe hurts when hits foot
-for a townie.... my brother in law does a decent days work
-watch out for falling trees
-make sure the motor bike is out of the way of said tree
-when going fowards on a bike.... make sure its not in reverse

So today has been a good day... relised some things.... that was when i came home to read a persons blog.... someones caught up on what i say.... yea things are still pissing me off but i had a talk with a mate i havent heard from  and that help a bit.... oh and another one

-everyone wants to talk to me when im going to bed

So the songs
Swing life away - Rise Against
Never too Late - Three Days Grace

5 Feb - Tracing the sholder

So today.... interesting at the least but still nothing to write about.... apart from my teacher asking if i like cats.... EPIC

Im going to stop doing a thought of the day.... since i am publishing poems on here.... well some of them.... they vent feelings easier...

The name of this post.... the moment before you shoot.... you trace your target.... this is me saying im undesive.... but i dont know what about.... as i know i have sed this.... im numb from everything.... i just want one more big thing to happen so it would tip the balance.... between love and hate.... evey and loath..... anger and calm.... any thing.... i want to feel again

Song of the day
Name - Goo Goo Dolls

4 Feb - Ego-Driven Love

So today... faced with a big decission.... to fight or to flee.... most say thats simple but is it.... the 'right' one is the one i want to do which is also the hardest..... do i dont i.... but every now and then the 'wrong' answer seems so right... so easy... so carefree...

'For i am the General envying the Private'

Yes i know last night i wrote poems but i needed to get rid of fustration which is just so.... everywhere... so even though this is probilly the 'right' thing to do tonight.... i can stand it... be true to myself... something i have never done... my closest friends know why this time was different but it still ends the same.... but i must... go down fighting rather than fall fleeing... it wont change anything but hey... im guna try... everyone thinks im a jerk... including the chick that has confessed her undying love for me to many people thinks this so why not...

You call your self indisive and stuborn.... but i say.... meet your match... I am selfish and stuborn so the right is wrong or the right is wrong... i have been told the easy way is wrong.... so i must.... i must.... selfish but i must

The Pretender - Foo Fighters

3 Feb - GAH RAWR MUTTER MUTTER

So today.... school shit aside again because.... the reason i write this is to get the emotional shit off my chest.... and probily why people read it...

So refuring to yesterdays post.... had to smile and wave.... it was a fustrating day at the least... but good thing to know that jack has my back and tells me all..... take that bitch....

any way a mate stood up today and he helped alot (one guess who) and yea the dramas lately he has been the one really that has stoped me killing something.... but he doesnt know that....

"you may think one day after them.... but lemmie say even if there is a after..... it aint guna be you'

Best thought i can think of

Song...
Let Me Go - 3 doors down

2 Feb - Let Die

So yea today was the start of school.... i could honestly say alot of things about it but im not guna because.... well.... read other peoples blogs.... itll say the same thing....

So... anyway most of my posts have a reason behind... this is to get something of my chest.... so anyway today when i thought everything went fine.... and i still think every thing has..... i dont give a shit about your comment... well someone sent me a text.... how couragous of her thoughts about what was happening today.... and this is me saying.... again.... this is harsh but i dont give a flying rats arse in space...... i dont care what you think.... its none of your bisness... nothing to do.... just leave it....

So thats my bitch....

'Let what is dead die... let what is alive live..... dont try to revive.... try to survive'

So thats the thought of the day any how..... oh i got told that my poems/thoughts werent all that bad.... i was pleased XD.... any how song of the day.... nothing to do with the post but its how I'm feeling....

I Don't Want To Miss A Thing - AeroSmith

1 Feb - A Shadow Breaks The Moon Light

So anyway I'm bored and i feel the need to write another blog.... manily because i thought of a new inspirational quote....

But yea would say how my day was but if you guys were like me you would skip this section so im not guna.... yes i just realise.... im bored but im not guna do something that could entertain me for a bit....

So anyway that quote.... my quote...

'When the sun sets you look to the ground and cry...
Why me you utter under your breath...
'Dont cry younging'
Theese words echo from behind
And a shadow breaks the moonlight
A sheperd with a deep voice speaks as he passes
For the sun to rise on a new day
It must set on the old one
So dry those tears girlie
Pick yourself up
Wonder through the night
Dont morn the loss
Wish the gain
And you will descover new treasures'

Ok.... it was surpost to be a quote.... but it turned into a poem ok.... honestly i dont care what you think.... I just write what i want here ok....

Before I make a bigger fool out of myself

Now i have to think of a name for this post before i go so.... im just guna name the poem so the name of the post is the name of the poem ok?

The song of the day.... and inspiration to me through a hard times.... someone who reads this blog should understand me...

So I Need You - 3 Doors Down

31 Jan - Go out conplaining

So today.... boring boring and lonley.... sometimes i cant stand living here... ages away from life.... but then some times i love it.....hunting at my back door step.... complaints.... nah didnt think so...

So today its raining.... that sums it up.... im in a bit of a downer of a mood... but thought i would write my blog to see what i accomplish....

This is my second to last day of freedom.... back to school... get to see people ;D... and i would like to tell a mate.... im still guna help you.... and yea i havent forgotton.... oh yea all those who read said blog.... im currently avoiding people on FB chat so just go on msn or msg me.... if you want to talk to me.... i dont think im avoiding anyone that reads this.... i wonder if anyone still does.... hmmmm....

The thought of the day.... some advice to a mate

'Theres light at the end of the tunnel.... even if it takes a stick or two of Dynamite to find it'

Now.... song of the day..... A awsome song that I spoz could inspire me to get out of this mood.... i must remeber to play it on repeat later on....

Show Me How To Live - Audioslave

30 Jan - Re-awaken

So today... woke up felt like doing something... so started punching nails in mums floor... gave up on that.... got rather boring... so i decided to ring my brother so i could dag our lambs before they would get blown.... mum thought this was a stupid idea.... what would you know... one was blown.... not that bad but still bad enough to need treetment.... luckily it was a little shit of a thing so it wouldve been next years house mutton anyway....

'You try drop hippo while i finish dagging this pen'

This was what my brother told me... we were daging in turns.... this is what i said...

'Aww yerp.... was that surpost ta be hard....'

First try XD...

'well then flip that pink nosed bitch'

'So when is this surpost ta get hard???'

So yea for those that dont know... hippo is a stud sufock ewe (probily 4 tooth) and amber (the pink nosed bitch) is a poll dorset stud ewe.... not that this would mean anything to you guys but they probily weigh about ateast 120 kgs.... so yea i was out classed in the department of weight (im only 80kg)

so that was my day.... it would mean jack shit to you guys but....... i dagged my first ewe and this is a milestone in my eyes....

The title??? yesterday i was in a lazy mood and today is me in the opisote of that.... oh yea and today i also mowed my roadside.... you guys probily think 'pffft'.... it was long over due and our lawn mower didnt like 4 inches of rain..... not to all.... keep lawn mowers undercover

Song of the day..... a message to what has been a good mate latily

I'll be your crying sholder - Audioslave

29 Jan - You call that a knife

So as today goes.... I went to town..... The end

Nah I did more than that in town.... i brought me a new knife..... since i just got payed.... was guna buy some more .222 ammo but they only had the cheap shit.... so yea i brought a tape adaptor for my ipod instead.... now i dont have to buy new speakers.... be-arches...

'Well with them.... Bullet hits goat.... goat walks away.... but with the Winchester ones.... Bullet hit goat.... goat rolls down hill.... Alex kill goat with shiny new knife.... Shiny new knife not so shiny'

That is how i explained the difference between the highland ammo and Winchester ammo.... note for all readers (not that you would care....) there is a reason why highland is only $30 a box....

The songs of today.... i dont know why they just need to be said

Hero of War - Rise Against
Hands Held High - Linkin' Park

28 Jan - A Daggers Run

So anyway this is my proper post for today....

It has been a basic day.... got up worked... came home and now i plan on sleeping...

This is going to be a boring post for all those that are reading this for my 'deep and meaningful' post.... done plenty of them lately... so anyway for the limited few that dont know.... my work today was dagging.... yesterday dagged a mob of lambs.... 3 1/2 hours with no music.... that was why i thought.... now today by my self i daged a mob bigger by my self... the only difference i had music... so i didnt think much.... it took just over a run for me to finish what was surpost to take me a day.... so i am rather proud at the moment.... and the thought for the day is something i got told about daggers by a dagger and i find it amusing....

'Dagger grab sheep... Dagger dag sheep..... Dagger drinks beer..... its not that hard.... only required the top inch of your brain...'

Probily wont find it as funny as me but i had a laugh.... anyway that explains why u thought about my 4 piece puzzle so much....

Any way.... the song of the day
Working Class Man - Jimmy Barnes

28 Jan - Progress

Right this is a post for this morning only... its just a something that i want to post.... just because i can

Progress is progress
Even when its wearing a hat

I think tonight im guna do something  with that.... But now i have to work....

This posts song...

I am the Highway - Audioslave

27 Jan - A perfect world

I once got told

is this your idea of a perfect world

and let me say.... the worlds not perfect but let me say.... the world is far from perfect.... i  live for the moment.... and it is scary... i will admit but its fun... like a bullet leaving the barrel... you wont stop until your happy... and im happy... for once in  a while and its scary 3 people know why and its just... im lost for words...


song of the post

Here without you - 3 Doors Down

27 Jan - Blame game

So today im writing this as the day goes on so it will sound stuffed up sometimes....

Its been a rather uneventful day so far (12.30pm) so i decided to get a start on my blog...

Got up and listened to music.... for about 3 hours and though about the last few days.... and yes i have already thought of my song of the day but i might add another one on to the list if i see fit....

Anyway got up had some food... like normal.... texted jack to inform him that our full group teacher is not Mrs Beaver.... we were shocked as this was one fine arse to look at in group... LOL (you would understand if you have seen the beav-a-nator)

And yea there is nothing to do really.... SHOCKED... PU2 is going into town so i cant go hunting... *mumble* now i have a week to kill and nothing to do... so bored.... any ideas????

Just proved to mum that im better than you at scrable.... YEAH!!!!

I have know life....

So... just updated my restruant... trying a new layout for extra money....just realise i gave away all my stoves and drink things so if it doesnt work... he is fooked... o well

Anyway this had been a lazy day so nothing to write about.... but i will leave writing the rest till tonight.... no dout someone will give me a reason to complain!!!

Now just after i finished writing that i went to work.... only 3 hours but still a good work out.... and that gave me an idea.... the thought of the day...

'What is love but the blame game'

And i thought of a few more songs for today that you MUST listen to.... but yea the first one is aimed at one person(as least harsh as it could be) and the last to are aimed at the other party.... obvious when you listen

So anyway.... i have decided to try chip away at a few issues..... obvious the one im guna try first...

So anyway the songs of the day

Superman - Five for Fighting
The Pretender - Foo Fighters
Change - Good Charlotte

26 Jan - Day of Days

So yesterday i mentioned karmar and how i got what i deserved.... this is true and i would like to mention not all karmar is bad.... a couple of days I was helping a mate through a hard time.... and on her blog she posted something i told her but those words that helped her.... helped me....

'After every battle you gain a yard...

After every battle you gain a yard...

That was your battle...

Now gain your yard'

Now these words I have sed to many people and it has helped them... now im just thankful that they have helped me...

Just while I'm on the topic of yesterday.... two things were told to me.... first of all... i got told.... if you dont understand this i have made the right decision.... so i would like to say i do understand it and i respect it.... i dont agree but i do understand.... that was me making my peace.... now secondly.... i got told i dont wish what she has done to you on to you(muddled up a bit but yea) so i would like to say that.... i know you dont wish for it but i deserve it so let what has been done lie.... like a wounded stag.... i will roar into the wind once again...

so that was almost 'What if? part III'

So now onto a new day... I woke up and did what i normally do... listen to music.... this is probily why my mind is so clear... 2 songs spoke to me but arent guna be the song of the day.... those songs were 'Outside - Staind' and 'Dont stop dancing - Creed' for reasons that are obvious when you listen to the lyrics not just the sound...

Anyway today was my sign in day.... they stuffed up my maths but that was good... my year nine maths teacher is back from england so i caught up with him... then we went and got my school stuff..... $$$... so expensive.... all i got was a new bag sandels a shirts.... i dont like spending money....

After that we went to see my sister and my little nefew.... he is really lively now.... so cute.... but than had to listen to.... poor natalie shes so list.... Im so worried.... She can do better.... Honstly I dont give a fuck!!! she made her bed let her sleep in it... but that is a family matter...

Anyway finally made it home.... now something i havent done is possum bashing.... so when i heard mum saw a possum ran into the calf shed.... GAME ON!!!... armed with my old trusty possuming hammer and a pitch fork that possum was gone.... now my brothers were ledgendary at this.... skill i envy.... but im not that bad... got him in the end and that thrill of the kill.... why i hunt i didnt think i would get it from hunting a possum but i did.... the reason i hunt.... the adreilin of the shot.... or in this case the hamer.... is worth it this is probily why i am so calm atm... yes i know its strange but its true....

So Im writing this as the day goes through... and i have just watched 'Band of brothers' so if your wondeing thats where my title comes from.... yet to think of a true meaning to it but i should think of one before i publish....

So any way it started to rain.... with this weather what do you expect.... and i had a brain wave and went for a run.... in the pooring rain.... then it hit me.... Day of Days.... this is the day to get over the last few days... and i beleve i have....

With a mixture of the kill and an ephifany shows me the importance of my quote.... this was my battle i have gained my yard.... im just curious to see what it was... this indeed is a Day of Days

Song of the day... again you need to listen to the lyrics rather than just the music....

Roadside - Rise Against

25 Jan - What if... part II

Yea i know this is a double post but i need to get this off my chest

Im just guna say it.... What if she does it again?

Nah this time its different...

words straight from her mouth and i beleved them...

For once i was happy... i had a reason to smile... had being the key word...

like a knife straight through the heart...

This time i thought it was different but spoz karma strikes again...

So this is when i say sorry to Rach Beka Keryn and all the other girls i miss lead... i got a taste of my own medicine and i guess it serves me right... now i know how you feel but it still doesnt make it alright... maybe one day ill learn my leason... hopefully...

as this is another post it deserves its own song

One Last Breath - Creed

25 Jan - What if?

So today....

First sunny day in a while so i fought i would do all the jobs i can find.... did them except one.... turns out the lawn mower doesnt like large amounts of rain....

So this is where my title comes in.... What if?

As many of my friends know me left alone to my thoughts is not a good things.... i think alot and this is where my downfall is.... i have been called good to talk to.... and such a positve guy.... but yea when im not thinking.... so anyway...

What if?

That has gone through my head a million times and it basicly has been comfermed by a mate who isnt to flash in my opinion lately....

What if?

What if I do like her.... im not as cruel as many people think.... as much as people say about me they dont know everything about me...

What if?

What if I could be happy for once.... Positive yes.... but not happy.... im still searching for my silver lining...

What if?

What if this could make sense...

But all these what if's...

Spoz i have to do what is 'best' for other people.... either way someones going get hurt....

The mate that recomend this blog to me does a photo a day.... I'm guna do a song a day..... today self explainatory!

What if - Creed

24 Jan - D-Day

So this is my first post...

This is a sugestion from a good mate.... i have learnt alot about her in her blog so this is my turn to share the knowledge....

Starting tomorow of cource!