26 Feb - Slide

Today was, well to put it nicely. It sucked. Way to boring. Nothing exciting, seriously nothing. Not at all.

The only reason I wanted I am writing this is to not miss a day.

The song?
Slide - Goo Goo Dolls

25 Feb - ERROR, Almost

I was going to do another post like yesterday because to say the least I had a great day. But I am serious fucked off!

Why?

• I am sick of people making jokes at my expense. As a mate pointed out was obvious, and I don't mean this in a mean way but she isn't really social. She still is awesome but she is quite and keeps her head low and even she noticed so it can't be too hard to notice
• I am sick of people  talking about me/laughing at me while I am not even in the conversation, So tempting to smack someone
• I wish I had a third reason so this argument sounded better

So I will do a song
Down Poison - 3 Doors Down

24 Feb - ERROR

This comment has been removed due to large amounts of frustration at the moment.

23 Feb - 2nd

FUCKING AMAZING to say the least.

Now I get the idea people arn't listening to the songs so I am guna post the lyrics of yesterdays song

all the tension in the world today
all the little girls fillin up the world today
when the good comes to bad the bad comes to good
but im a live my life like i should (like i should)
now all the critics wanna hit it
shit can ever did it
just because they dont get it
but ill stay fitted
knew there commited
now this red cap gets a wrap from these critics
do we always gotta cry (gotta cry)
do we always gotta live inside a lie (live inside a lie)
lifes just a blast
its movin really fast
better stay on top
or life will kick you in the ass
follow me into a solo
remember that,kid
so what you wanna do
and where you gonna run
when your starin down the cable of my
might put it at your grill like gun
Limp Bizkit is rockin the set
its like russian roulette
when your placin your bet
so dont be upset
when your broke
and your done
cuz im a be the one til i jet(im a be the one til i jet)
i know why you wanna hate me
i know why you wanna hate me
i know why you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
i know why you wanna hate me
i know why you wanna hate me
now i know why you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
why you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
why you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
does anybody really know the secret
or the combination for this life
and where they keep it
its kinda sad when u dont know the meanin
but everything happens for a reason (everything happens for a reason)
i dont even know what i should say
cause im an idiot
a loser, microphone abuser
i analyze every second i exist
beatin on my mind every second with my fists
and everybody wanna run (wanna run)
everybody wanna hide from the gun (hide from the gun)
you can take a ride through this life if you want
but you cant take the edge off the knife (no sir)
and now you want your money back (money back)
but your denied cause your brains fried from the sack
and there aint nothin i can do
cause life is a lesson
you learn it when your through
i know why you wanna hate me (wanna hate me)
i know why you wanna hate me (know why you wanna hate me)
i know why you wanna hate me (know why you wanna hate me)
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
i know why you wanna hate me (why you wanna hate me)
i know why you wanna hate me (you wanna hate me)
now i know why you wanna hate me (wanna hate me)
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
know why you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
know you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
now i know why
now i know why
now i know why
now i know why
now i know why you wanna hate me
now i know why you wanna hate me
now i know why you wanna hate me
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately
cause hate is all the world has even seen lately

Yea it is long but true

And now the song for today the 2nd most played  song on my ipod
My Generation - Limp Bizkit

22 Feb - Scorpin Ready To Sting

So today, fucking amazing to say the least. Awesome in every sense of the word. Today I have seen people depressed, struggling, taking control, over thinking and just been plain bitchy. To all those people I say fuck it. To day has been awesome. This week is guna be awesome. Freedom, support, and a conflict. These are only understood by me and me alone.

So that's enough about our group. Thanks to days of, I have a pile of home work due tomorrow. Also no one guessed what the title meant. So where do I get my title from today?

Song. Legend of a song, perfect for this moment. Perfect for our group
Take a Look Around - Limp Bizkit

21 Feb - Light Tank of the GLA

So today did nothing, why?

Because I wanted a slow day, for once.

Anyhow one thing I have did was move the cows off the turnips, running through turnips is hard, chasing cows around a hill is worse, doing them both together, lets just say, colourful words.

Spent the afternoon laxing out and thinking about the past and yes I agree with some off the remarks made about me so I  guess you can say I am guna change.

Oh and a note, I didn't write that poem in yesterdays post, it seems like some people thought I did. I wish I did, but I didn't.

Yea also I am dropping the high and low thing since, yea it was just pointless.

Anyhow also I wanted to ask you guys what my blog was like now since I have changed it?

Also bonus prize for the person who figures out where my title of this post came from.

Song - Someday - Nickelback

20 Feb - This is surprising

 So today I was guuna go for a goat shoot but the guy I was going with didn't have any petrol. Last night was certinly 'interesting' to say the least. Before tea I was moving firewood from about 5 to 9 without a tea stop. It was just the fustrated mood I was in. I only stopped because I ran out of fire wood to move. It was tempting to move it all out of the shed and start again. But then the light had faded so I went in side.

The events that followed were a shell shocking experience which I still haven't gotten to grips with sort of. I feel free. Found out two of my ex's hate me. This would annoy most. But nah it is refreshing. I am actually pleased. That feeling of freedom. Not having to worry about stepping on your ex's toes for when the next girl comes along. Which with recent information doesn't seem to far off if that is what I want.

This brings me to another point I wanted to say. On Thursday in group I saw a poster that meant allot

'How are you going to discover new ocean's if you don't lose sight of the shore'

 This has a clear message and I speaks to me allot. I know people have been telling me to be positive. But my own words don't help me. But this saying did, it helped ALLOT actually.

Now another thing I wanted to say. People have asked me where I have gotten my poems from or what is my inspiration. My inspiration is this poem here
THE GOLDEN ANTLERED STAG

Out upon the southern rangers,
In the land of bush and snow
Lived an old and malformed stag
Who had many wounds to show

Resting in the blue-grass basin
Near his favourite water hole
He was thinking of the Golden-
Antlered Stag of long ago

When a little flock of keas
Settled on the rock above him
So he bade them to come near
That his story they might hear

Fly down here, pretty keas
And my story I'll unfold
Of the famous thirty-pointer
Who had antlers of pure gold

And the flock of mountain birds
Drew around in manner mild
Then the ancient stag addresses them
In the language of the wilds

He was first seen by the Maoris
In the days of long ago
And strange rumours spread about him
Reached the men who lust for gold

Out they come with many horses
Loaded high with food and guns
And by strange and varied courses
Went upon his trail at once

Butchers, bakers, cabinetmakers
Bookies, Blacksmith, two-up kings
And one ancient undertaker
Swelled the crowd that hunted him

Total war was nothing to it
'Twas not safe to show outside'
For the mob had started shooting
Anything they saw on sight

Station owners got the wind up
For the casualties now ran
Seven dogs and sixteen horses
Twenty cattle and a man

But old golden antlers beat them
To a marathon did treat them
Stalk for hours then they'd see him
On a mountain miles away

One by one they grew disheartened
Worn out by the greed of gain
And the stag when they departed
Still the monarch of the range

And if moonlight flying
You should chance to settle by him
Do not fear to see him vanish
Like a phantom in the sky

Out upon the southern ranger
In New Zealand's no-man's-land
Roams the stag with golden antlers
Stalkers get him if you can

19 Feb - How is it always like this?

I liked being happy!

Now everything is against me. I think everyone knows that feeling.

Yea I know think positive. But that is hard sometimes when it seems like the world is out there.

In a way you could say I am like Mum. I believe there is something out there, just not god as such. I would like to have a religion, something to escape to when I feel like this.

Anyhow, didn't go to school today, and instead did a rubbish run and a load of firewood. Part of the agreement to get a day of school.

Tomorrow I am going for a goat shoot with a mate, Hopefully will give  me a escape. This mate isn't from our group so there will be no drama  which would be the best part of it.

And last of, how come it is you realise what you want, only when you can't have it?

I think I might spend this afternoon playing around with layouts. It should take my mind of thing(s)

High - Getting of school

Low - Waking up

Song - Here is Gone - Goo Goo Dolls

18 Feb - Little Things Mean the Most

So today. School as normal but really, who cares about that, the reason I read blog I think is the same reason that you guys read this so I am not guna bother saying about school.

Yesterdays post mentioned that I would get annoyed at some one,  I would like to mention, that was a total understatement. It was hard to even look at said person today. But any how.

I actually talk to someone about an issue I have kept secret for a while and this is a note for that person to keep it between us and only us.

So yea I am still pissed of because I still don't know and it is a piece to a jigsaw, I need the truth. GAH!

Anyhow before I say anything I regret

High - Talking to someone at lunch

Low - seeing the person in the comment in the 2nd paragraph

Song - Little Things - Good Charlotte

17 Feb - GAH!!!!

Well today was fun even though it was fucking annoying. The girls were useless at farm duty. Ok I stuffed while pressing a bale but at least I did everything else right. Any way enough of the moaning. I am in a sort of good mood but that wont last. Some one tonight I know well piss me off so yea why try putting on a act. I need one more piece to the jigsaw. Now give me that piece. Yea, someone should realise what that means. Any how, back to school tomorrow *snore*

High - Finding out that most of my farm duties have been straight 10's

Low - Fucking up that bale

Song - Not Enough - 3 Doors Down

16 Feb - 4 to 2... That doesn't work

So today had farm duty. Real easy, pressing in the morning, that was it. Get full control of the shed tomorrow. Now that is power. So that was my day.

High - Farm duty

Low - None

Song - Changes - 3 Doors Down

15 Feb - The day of awareness

So today is like any other day except for the fact I am in a open mood. So now is the time. The time for what you may ask. For picking fights when you want to know something. Today is a day I will tell it as it be. So use this as you may.

High - Finishing the Chem practical first

Low - Getting half wrong

Song - Bad day - Fuel

14 Feb - This was a day

So today. Woke up earlier than planned but oh well. Ended up doing some more firewood but this time its alright since it is ours.  It is easy to say I am in a weird mood (things/people piss me off allot easier) So it is safe to say I am annoyed. I am not to sure what else to write.

Highs - (blank)

Low - Smacking my foot with my axe

Song (just because its awesome) - Like a Stone - Audioslave

13 Feb - It sounded like a good idea

Last time I will walk for 4 hours carrying 2 guns. Fuck my shoulder is sore. Only got 3 goats. 2 were shot by me. One with a .222 at about 30m and the 2nd with the .22 at 50m. We could've had a fourth but then my sisters boy friend's dog ran after it so we lost the perfect shot with the .222. Oh well. Try again next week end. For now, its rest, and maybe a few beers. While I wait for the shower.

So that is all that happened today. In a slightly better mood then last night. Only just though.

High - Smoking that goat with the .22/ directing Doug with 2 words and a finger movement and he ended up exactly were I told him to go.

Low - THAT FUCKING DOG

Song - Heaven - Live

12 Feb - Negitive side of a positive day

For those who haven't notice yet. My blog is becoming 'perfect'. I'm writing it as you guys want. I'm stopping my poems because there was too many of them also, spell checking it because spelling is so important. And finally taking everything that is my style of writing and replacing it to be normal. So welcome to my new blog. Honestly, Fuck you guys (temporary it will past) This blog is about me and me alone but I will make it like you want it because I'm fucked up like that and honestly, this blog and my poetry was the last bit of originality left for me but like a good fucking boy I will listen and change it. So  welcome again to a normal blog where everything is normal. A double post for the day but there was two completely different moods to today. My blog has officially lost all effectiveness to it and you guys might as well write it because then it would be fucking perfect. Like you guys are.

Song, finally I get a good post for this song
Bother - Stone Sour

12 Feb - *whistle* twirl of the hand and bang bang goes five guns

So today; finally got to go for a shoot, 30 goats later. This wasn't like the last shoot where they ran towards us. This was shooting through scrub and across valleys but we got our goats. Still didnt cut any up but I will get my car then it will be afternoon hunts with the .222 and the .22, good fun. AND we run out of salami. Stupid brother.

Basically all that happened. Me and mum are the only ones who can keep Lil Josie happy. GO ME. She loves her uncle.

High - Being the first one to the goats, i.e the fastest runner

Low - Being the last to shoot. Stupid gun

Song - Blaze of Glory - Bon Jovi

11 Feb - Complaints

So now for a while I am guna leave a list of complaints until i stop getting pissed of
-stop trying to spell check everything. Get the fuck over yourselfs who gives a shit. there is alot more things in life better than spelling. Go spell check your own blogs.
-write a manuel on how to understand females. Honestly can you complicate things any more
-The person who invented blisters is a cunt

Now anyway. positive things. a good day 2moro. get to go shoot stuff, i have plenty of faces to picture.

Today was pointless. waste of time.

High - telling a guy that keryn gives the best blow jobs
Low - wanting to punch everyone but a few people in our group in the face today

Song -
Its been a while - Staind

10 Feb - IM USING COMMA'S

So, today i have gotten a lecture or 1,927 of them about my blog so i am taking it into concideration,

Anyway today in ag we learnt why your lambs dying on you is not a good thing, no shit surlock

Got home, not going for a goat shoot, but someone seems enthused to talk to me for once, so spoz you can say things worked out all right

Gotten home to my neice who is currently trying to get to the couch, so cute!!!!

But uncle al doesnt like bounce as much as her, its hard work

High = Seeing my lil Josie
Low = Getting a splinter, its been a good day

Song of the day
Selling the Drama - Live

9 Feb - They say ah

So today.... pointless.... nothing excyting happened.... no grudges to hold.... no crushes to hint... just a day....

Oh yea... in chem first time asking a serious question..... i get mocked.... WTF.... ok it had nothing to do with chem but it was serious....

High - writing a poem before breakfast

Low - finding out that ben gets paid for giving his father a hand in the butchery.... if ya know what i mean

Song
So Cold - Breaking Benjamin

8 Feb - God save.... Fred????

So anyway today.... alright today.... only wanted to punch 3 people in our group.... all time record... any how

Im finding it hard to write a blog since i dont have anything to complain about... oh i smacked a yr 11.... serves him right for reading my texts.... dont think hell sit next to me again.... complains???? nah didnt think so...

One thing today i had is the need... the need for speed.... but yea i still wish i had further to drive home...

So anyhow since i droped the thought of a day idea im guna do todays high and todays low... and i think you guys should too...... it will be imformitive

High - Thinking the most awsome coment in english.... 3rd formers were walking past our english room(noisily) and everyone was 'reading' and i was so tempted to say.... QUITE PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO SLEEP
Low - On the bus ride home it felt like my left one was in a vice.... ouch it really hurts

Song of the day.... no reason.... i have just listened to it about 8 times already today
Like a Stone - Audioslave

Oh yea and if you guys are still reading this.... just leave a coment.... im curious to see who ACTUALLY reads it

7 Feb - Cutie

So today.... split some more firewood and yea thats the only thing productive i did....

But i did go see my niece..... cute lil jumper she is.... she didnt like me this time...

so yea today is what you would call un eventful but yea i did read a quote from somewhere

'Dream as if you will live for every... but live as if you will die tomorow'

Im just pissed that i cant claim that as my own inspirational quote.... but yea I thought it will help a few people as they seem to be going through a hard time at the moment..... teenaged girls eh.... you gota..... well yea.... lets just leave it as that....

Song of the day
Meant to Live - Switchfoot

6 Feb - Fence stops rolling rings

So today... been doing firewood...  the fence stops the rings from rolling... too bad its at the bootom of the hill instead of the top... so i had to get the rings and carry them up.... and they are not light rings even... its a good work out.... it will help me build some musle for.... yes when i thought this.... my head sed her name.... but yea that ship has sailed.... so this is when i realised i need to get over my self.... so thats what i did...

So i am starting each week new... cutting loose ends and going for gold.... no ristrictions no red tape just go for it.... hopefully this will work out better than likeing someone for a year.... finally going out with them.... and having them just chuck you out like last nights newspapper....

So this is me starting in a new frame of mind starting now.... thinking of goals.... hmmm

Things i learnt today
- rings hurt when roll over foot
-axe hurts when hits foot
-for a townie.... my brother in law does a decent days work
-watch out for falling trees
-make sure the motor bike is out of the way of said tree
-when going fowards on a bike.... make sure its not in reverse

So today has been a good day... relised some things.... that was when i came home to read a persons blog.... someones caught up on what i say.... yea things are still pissing me off but i had a talk with a mate i havent heard from  and that help a bit.... oh and another one

-everyone wants to talk to me when im going to bed

So the songs
Swing life away - Rise Against
Never too Late - Three Days Grace

5 Feb - Tracing the sholder

So today.... interesting at the least but still nothing to write about.... apart from my teacher asking if i like cats.... EPIC

Im going to stop doing a thought of the day.... since i am publishing poems on here.... well some of them.... they vent feelings easier...

The name of this post.... the moment before you shoot.... you trace your target.... this is me saying im undesive.... but i dont know what about.... as i know i have sed this.... im numb from everything.... i just want one more big thing to happen so it would tip the balance.... between love and hate.... evey and loath..... anger and calm.... any thing.... i want to feel again

Song of the day
Name - Goo Goo Dolls

4 Feb - Ego-Driven Love

So today... faced with a big decission.... to fight or to flee.... most say thats simple but is it.... the 'right' one is the one i want to do which is also the hardest..... do i dont i.... but every now and then the 'wrong' answer seems so right... so easy... so carefree...

'For i am the General envying the Private'

Yes i know last night i wrote poems but i needed to get rid of fustration which is just so.... everywhere... so even though this is probilly the 'right' thing to do tonight.... i can stand it... be true to myself... something i have never done... my closest friends know why this time was different but it still ends the same.... but i must... go down fighting rather than fall fleeing... it wont change anything but hey... im guna try... everyone thinks im a jerk... including the chick that has confessed her undying love for me to many people thinks this so why not...

You call your self indisive and stuborn.... but i say.... meet your match... I am selfish and stuborn so the right is wrong or the right is wrong... i have been told the easy way is wrong.... so i must.... i must.... selfish but i must

The Pretender - Foo Fighters

3 Feb - GAH RAWR MUTTER MUTTER

So today.... school shit aside again because.... the reason i write this is to get the emotional shit off my chest.... and probily why people read it...

So refuring to yesterdays post.... had to smile and wave.... it was a fustrating day at the least... but good thing to know that jack has my back and tells me all..... take that bitch....

any way a mate stood up today and he helped alot (one guess who) and yea the dramas lately he has been the one really that has stoped me killing something.... but he doesnt know that....

"you may think one day after them.... but lemmie say even if there is a after..... it aint guna be you'

Best thought i can think of

Song...
Let Me Go - 3 doors down

2 Feb - Let Die

So yea today was the start of school.... i could honestly say alot of things about it but im not guna because.... well.... read other peoples blogs.... itll say the same thing....

So... anyway most of my posts have a reason behind... this is to get something of my chest.... so anyway today when i thought everything went fine.... and i still think every thing has..... i dont give a shit about your comment... well someone sent me a text.... how couragous of her thoughts about what was happening today.... and this is me saying.... again.... this is harsh but i dont give a flying rats arse in space...... i dont care what you think.... its none of your bisness... nothing to do.... just leave it....

So thats my bitch....

'Let what is dead die... let what is alive live..... dont try to revive.... try to survive'

So thats the thought of the day any how..... oh i got told that my poems/thoughts werent all that bad.... i was pleased XD.... any how song of the day.... nothing to do with the post but its how I'm feeling....

I Don't Want To Miss A Thing - AeroSmith

1 Feb - A Shadow Breaks The Moon Light

So anyway I'm bored and i feel the need to write another blog.... manily because i thought of a new inspirational quote....

But yea would say how my day was but if you guys were like me you would skip this section so im not guna.... yes i just realise.... im bored but im not guna do something that could entertain me for a bit....

So anyway that quote.... my quote...

'When the sun sets you look to the ground and cry...
Why me you utter under your breath...
'Dont cry younging'
Theese words echo from behind
And a shadow breaks the moonlight
A sheperd with a deep voice speaks as he passes
For the sun to rise on a new day
It must set on the old one
So dry those tears girlie
Pick yourself up
Wonder through the night
Dont morn the loss
Wish the gain
And you will descover new treasures'

Ok.... it was surpost to be a quote.... but it turned into a poem ok.... honestly i dont care what you think.... I just write what i want here ok....

Before I make a bigger fool out of myself

Now i have to think of a name for this post before i go so.... im just guna name the poem so the name of the post is the name of the poem ok?

The song of the day.... and inspiration to me through a hard times.... someone who reads this blog should understand me...

So I Need You - 3 Doors Down