19 Feb - How is it always like this?

I liked being happy!

Now everything is against me. I think everyone knows that feeling.

Yea I know think positive. But that is hard sometimes when it seems like the world is out there.

In a way you could say I am like Mum. I believe there is something out there, just not god as such. I would like to have a religion, something to escape to when I feel like this.

Anyhow, didn't go to school today, and instead did a rubbish run and a load of firewood. Part of the agreement to get a day of school.

Tomorrow I am going for a goat shoot with a mate, Hopefully will give  me a escape. This mate isn't from our group so there will be no drama  which would be the best part of it.

And last of, how come it is you realise what you want, only when you can't have it?

I think I might spend this afternoon playing around with layouts. It should take my mind of thing(s)

High - Getting of school

Low - Waking up

Song - Here is Gone - Goo Goo Dolls